Today..

I lost my son today,

People came to weep and cry,

As I sat and stared, dry eyed.

They struggled to find words to
say,

to try and make the pain go
away.

I walked the floor in disbelief,

I lost my son today.

I lost my son last month.

Most of the people went away,

some still call and some still stay.

I wait to wake up from this
dream.

This can't be real. I want to
scream.

Yet everything is locked inside,

GOD help me, I want to die.

I lost my son last month.

I lost my son last year.

Now people who had come,
have gone.

I sit and struggle all day long.

To bear the pain so deep inside.

And now my friends just
question, why?

Why does this person not move
on ?

Just sits and sings the same old
song.

Good heavens, it has been so
long.

I lost my son last year.

Time has not moved on for me.

The numbness it has
disappeared.

my eyes have now cried many
tears.

I see the look upon your face,

he must move on and leave this
place

Yet I am trapped right here in
time,

the song's the same, as is the
rhyme,

I LOST MY son....TODAY...

Please..

Please, don't ask me if I'm over
it yet.

I'll never be over it.

Please, don't tell me he is in a
better place.

He isn't here with me. But I
know he's with God

Please, don't say at least he isn't
suffering.

I haven't come to terms with why
he had to suffer at all.

Please, don't tell me you know
how I feel.

Unless you have lost a child.

Please, don't ask me if I feel
better.

Bereavement isn't a condition
that clears up.

Please, don't tell me at least you
had him for some years..

What year would you choose for
your child to die?

Please, don't tell me God never
gives us more than we can bear.

Please, I know he does'nt

Please, just say you remember
my child, if you do.

Please, just let me talk about my
child.

Please, mention my child's name.

Please, just let me cry.......

I Love and miss you, Paul